Yep, I'm alive. It's been quite a while since I uploaded my last photo - I know but things have been difficult for me. There were many stuff I should handle, thus I reserveb my time for my priorities.

What's new then? Well I finally bought a new camera - Finepix S5700, namely. Earning money is hard work, so I refuse to give more than 300$ to a camera! Being a compact for upper-beginners, I guess this will be ok for me. Since I bought a new cam, I try to find time for photography. In fact I have to find time for everything (find time? Eohm. You know it's really some concrete thing that I've to catch!

Office hours are a complete mess, now I have MA courses to follow also, home needs care - that's a time consuming stuff. Though I found some lady to get house things done, I still have the responsibility.. Anyway I'm sure that I will find some more time to spend on photography. Seriously! AA - another thing! From the very beginning of this year, I have been keen on blogging and this spares my time a lot, also. But I'm a serious blog-writer. When I start the English version, I'll adress my actual blog here - you can follow if you want. Why would you want to follow my blog? I have no idea. Cause I'm no one. No spot. Anyway..

I love this season. It's quite mild and makes you feel relaxed. A cup of tea will do good. So I'd better rush to get one.
See ya all.



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WARNING: this journal that you are to read is just a result of boredom at the office. so don't read the rest if you don't like any kind of schmooze talk.
Well, this is about how is it to be a "yarasa", not the animal, my self in a work day.

A typical work day and my sufferings...

I usually get up swearing a blue streak, at some past 6 (this sentence comes from one of my first English classes, the subject was habits and the example sentence was of course, this one ).

I hardly have the energy for getting dressed at that early, so I by force put on the first things I see around. result not always become matching but I survive!!

then I rush into bus station to catch the bus of our company, which our employer provides for us (wow another example from my English classes, relative clauses!!). Till the arrival, I sleep on that comfortable seat, while listening to Rage Against the Machine from my brand new mp3 player (well that's another subject, I believe that the sound quality of creative players are really charming!).

Being a person who hates penguinish style of working people, it is possible to say that people become puzzled up with my style - since I wear large pants or odd blouses that are oldish in order to sit comfortably in my cubicle. anyway, I don't care and it seems that my employer doesn't, either. as a person who works with computer for a day long, I will attack him if he says anything concerning my wearing habits, as well!

I then have my breakfast at the office and read news, watch news and then chat with my buddies. It takes an hour before I start literally working - I am not a morning person and I hate early risers.

I work, and work, and work, and work till lunch break, and I watch episodes of Heroes at that time while eating some stuff. We then wander around outside to strecth our muscles with some guys here.

I then work, and work, and work, and work till the end of the work hours. After I arrive my place, I go somewhere, wining and dining with my friends.. I go home very late, so I almost faint before I sleep. Then I get up at some past 6 and everything starts again..!

what a hanky-panky for covering your expenses...

BUT... today is different! It's friday, it's happy friday!!! tomorrow will nor be the same! I'll sleep, get outside, wine and dine, watch films and have some photographs taken! yehaaaaaaa.



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who the hell did invent the shitty concept of working? why do I have to make money out of selling my time? god damn all offices!

actually, it's been a while that I've heard of the movie, "Office Space". Watching it with the eyes of an average employee made me laugh at the satire of my life, which also powered my suffer!

working people under the big huge giant bosses are kinda like whores! why? because - we also sell our bodies along with our precious time for the sake of making money to our big huge giant powerful companies! to tell the truth, our situation as the worker is worse I guess. Min 9 hrs a day is required and no other cop-outs are accepted by our employers.

you have to be healthy; be productive in your office hours; you also are expected to have your sweety laptop on your knees to follow your work even in the bathroom!

office life hates quite and reasonable people, as well. in order to success in the office, you have to be jade, crabby, aloud, slanderer and fake! since those are the features of the most top-rated guys in the workspace, an optimist person will be discarded to have a promotion!

you are paid for your nice work, ha? LOL...
that salary will be never enough for your high interests but it will not let you starve, though!

social security? what's that? say that you are seriously ill and can't continue working and still not retired - in six months your insurances will expire...

anyway.. that's the truth that we are taught, isn't it? you are born, you grew up, go to the tiny hanky panky schools, fall in love, utilize a job, specialize in your scope, get married, have ten children, educate them, bring up children, make them have their jobs and then they will be depressed? what the hell are all these stuff is for? nothing. completely nothing.

looking forward to off days, have fun in between barriers, have a coffee in breaks, desire in dreams...

I don't want shiny office workspaces, cubicles; words that start or end with; "mr", "mrs", ASAP, regards and so.

I just don't waaaant!!! I need to have some rest! some vacation, may be.. I'am tired

What sort of this then, this chaotic appearance of life?

I have recently been questioning, elaborating and assessing the concept of our souls, that the 'Musts' we have to get used to.. First must, "no matter what happens, you should keep living!" Why? If I don't want to, why should I bear? Second must, "people are as good as you do, cling to them!" - and there becomes second lie - people suck, people rot.. human being is the most dangerous creature that one can encounter throughout her/his life! It's the human being who harms, it's the human being who hurts, who flutters... Third must, "work hard! you'll one day have your response". Another big lie! Work in a cubicle whole day, get paid, spill money around... What's the result? Nothing! Oh, "we should try some new cliches" then...

Anyhow.. I'm just scattering some words to this grey atmosphere. I am happy, I can hardly feel that though.. I'm lucky --lucks fails you someday, that's not a proper state as well. I am not admirable -anyway that's not the point, let's not spoil the subject .. I am just me. I am the one who has sold her soul to her own Devil. I am the with the patched existence. I was my beginning, I am my life, I should be my end..

Reflections of this life occur to me sometimes, just colorful reflections.. What sort of dream was this - how appalling and how charming; how distrustful and irritating on the same time. What is this? A reflection of my being, or the reflection of a mythic god, Loki for example, who is up to spoiling Odin's life? What was the cause?...


Anyway.. Just scatter the words.. they will come together soon...



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and I'm knitting on the game. I had fun thanks to this tiny game. no other intentions are held during this journal. please don't read the rest if you're a serious person who hates such stuff..
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and here are the lovely rules :
-open your music player and put in on shuffle ..
-read the questions and press play ..
-use the song titles to answer the questions ..


How does the world see me?
Temptations, The Oldies - Earth Angel

Will I have a happy life?
Radiohead - I am a citizen insane

What do people really think of me?
Queens of the Stonage - Regular John

Do people secretly lust after me?
Radiohead - Paranoid android

How can I make myself happy?
Radiohead - Prove yourself

What should I do with my life?
Jack Johnson - do you remember?

Will I ever have children?
Cat Stevens - wild world

What is some good advice for me?
Placebo - Taste In Men

What do I think my current theme song is?
Led Zepplin - Dyer maker

What does everyone else think my current theme song is?
Muse - unintended

What song will play at my funeral?
Queens of the Stonage - If only

What type of men/women do you like?
Shania Twain - You've got a way with me

What is my day going to be like?
Radiohead - Lucky

Why am I here?
Queens of the Stonage - No one knows

What will people remember me for?
Skin - Faithfulness

What song will I get stuck in my head tomorrow?
Sting - Every breath you take

Are there people outside waiting to take me away?
Ronan Keating - When you say nothing at all

What will this year be all about?
NIPTUCK Poloroid - so damn beautiful

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